bits and pieces.

2011.

2012-01-01T23:08:00.001+08:00

That was 2011.

Happy 2012 people. Have a great year ahead :)

What happened?

2011-09-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

"Home>School>Home>Study>Home"

This has been my daily routine for the past few weeks, with the occasional long afternoon naps in between.

Promos are totally sucking my life out me but there's nothing I can do. Isn't this our life as students?

So much have happened recently that I'm starting to doubt everything.

Of all schools that I've attended, people in CJ are the most different from my usual circle of friends. Sometimes I wonder if I've been in the comfort zone for too long---hanging out with similar types of people. I've grown so accustomed to them that I don't even know how to break free from the cycle, and communicate with other types of people. Don't get me wrong, I love my class, I love my friends but I'm starting to doubt who I really am. Some people think I'm weird, some think that I'm boring, some think that I'm lame, some think that i'm nice. Whatever it is, the main point is, even though I personally think I've got quite a number of friends, but recently I feel like these friends aren't even my friends. They're more like, classmates, acquaintances.

Someone once told me that that's how people are in certain stages of life, you just have to remember those who really cared for you, who will be there to catch you when you fall? But truth is, how many true friends will you have in your life?

Sigh, the key to everything is to stop pretending and be yourself. But how to be myself, when I don't even know myself. One thing I know for sure, I've been aiming to accomplish what people expect me to achieve, instead of doing things I really want.

I think this whole post doesnt even make sense because the English is so lousy and the expressions are so awkward. GAHH.

Negligence.

2011-08-26T22:47:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I last accessed this blog. Doubt that anyone still reads it. As much as I love this space,it's no doubt that Twitter is way more fun/convenient/low maintenance.

Some overdue photos to entertain you guys.

At the mean time, Imma go study(?) or perhaps turn in early. I really don't want to retain .

667.

2011-07-06T22:17:00.001+08:00

Finally, after blogging for 4.5 years, this is my 667th post.

I remember I used to blog everyday, telling the whole world about my daily life in school, using all the 'lols' and the unnecessary paragraphing. I must admit, that so much have changed since 4.5 years back. In a good way or bad, it's for you to say.

Mid years are finally over. And I kinda foresee/expect/know myself that I'll get straight 'U''s for mid year exams. It's superduperuber demoralizing when I see everyone in my class doing better than me. I know I shouldn't compare, but that's how I feel. I know it's the effort and the amount of hardwork being put in. That's why it really makes me wonder, what have I been doing for the past 6 months. Well, basically nothing.

Ever since O Levels ended, I must admit that I haven't improved, haven't grown, haven't learnt anything. I practically just wasted half a year doing nothing but facebooking/twittering/splurging on unnecessary stuffs/socializing. Like that's going to get me somewhere. I remember when I was young, I used to set goals and work hard towards them. I guess that's why I'm not even motivated to do anything--I don't even know what I want to do in life.

When people ask me, have you thought about your next step, I would just say, probably not any Science related course. But that's not even answering the question itself. I don't even know why I'm doing my Physics-Math-Econs-H1Chem subject combination. Yes,I chose it myself, but, what am I going to do with all these subjects?

Sigh. I've thought of business courses, but do I really want them or is it just because they're my only option left.??I have no idea.

Sigh. No more let nature takes it course, no more making last minute decisions. I don't even know what happened to the Grace who would plan every step ahead. People change, I guess.

~~~~

I hope I'm just being paranoid. I hope I'm wrong. I think you're judging me because you know my darkest secrets. I think you thought I was lying to all the while. But I swear, I did not. I know you think I'm saying all these to gain sympathy, to put on an act, to convince you, but it's what I really feel . I don't even know if you still read this space, I don't even know if you still care. But just hear me out, one last time.I tried loving you, and I did. I know you've moved on and I'm on my way too. Thanks for everything, and I'm sorry that I've taken you for granted.

Smile,while you can.

2011-06-18T01:24:00.000+08:00

1 more week till school starts, which means i've got 1 week left to digest everything i've learnt for the past few months. Looking back, I really wonder what have I been doing in school everyday.

Holidays have been good so far, whether it's about reconnecting with my long lost friends or catching up on my beauty sleep. I'm doing everything that I should, except studying.

Whatever it is, I think I've let it go past me. I'm glad didn't run away from reality this time.

No more partying till mye's are over. I really wanna prove the whole world wrong.

Starbucks @ 3am in the morning.

It's nice to know that you'll always have a friend who will be there for you no matter what.

See No More.

2011-06-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

So much can happen within 2 months.

Once again, I feel so ashamed, so embarrassed.

If only the world doesn't judge, if only people do not talk behind your backs. I hope people can stop being so shallow, speaking things only from what they see.

There's so much running through my mind, but yet I do not know how to put them. I've gotta stop caring about how people think of me.

Of course, of course. I should have expected all these to be un-true. Why do I always find myself struggling alone. It's time to get to get stronger Grace.

What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

Highway to Hell

2011-05-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

I wanna rant. I wanna let it all out, but nowhere is safe anymore.

Once bitten, twice shy.

Sometimes, after being so silly to trust someone, and in the end, to realize that the person's been judging you all along. Maybe the person is not, maybe it's just me being paranoid and inferior.Maybe it's me who thinks the whole world is against me, but it's not. But maybe I'm right.

Sometimes, there are somethings I'd rather not know, to get hurt. Sometimes, I'd rather not hope to get disappointed.

I trust you, but do you?

Sometimes I hope, we can just tear away the pages of our life story. Starting afresh is impossible, because there's always a previous chapter, a previous page.

Whatever I said doesn't make any sense.

About A Girl.

2011-05-01T02:25:00.000+08:00

I've been on an emotional roller coaster recently. Feeling insecure and inferior most of the times, the fear of being judged by everyone around me when I'm alone, however, I'm glad that I don't feel as shitty when I'm in school. Thanks to mah hommies. :)

Mid Year Paper for General Paper is coming in like 3 weeks time, but I'm still doing nothing about it. Awesome or what. I should be grateful that I have a brother who's willing to use his hard earn money to motivate me.But I'm sorry bro, I love you too much to let you spend your money on me, you can keep it cause I'll never get it. Hahaha.

I've had several consecutive crazy weekends, and it burnt my pocket as well. I swear I will start saving money(ctrl+ F this phrase and you have quite a number of results). My birthday was an awesome one. Once again, thank you 1T21 buddies for buying me the black forest cake. :) As much as I'm very excited about being 1 year closer to 18, it also means that I'm another year closer to 20. TIME, Y U PASS SO FAST?

I'm eating Sunmaid raisins at 2am in the morning and they're awesome. (Y)

And I love my bowling people! I'm so proud of those who worked hard and gave their very best for A Divisions!

My love love, aiai and my little girl.

Hiatus.

2011-03-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

I've been on hiatus for more than a month. That shows how busy I have been.

Anyway, School is awesome with all the bunch of jokers and activities. It kinda irks me though, that the assignment comes in non-stop daily. And not to mention the speed of lecture, it's just like bullet trains.

School:
After Rockafella, we had Cross Country not long after that. As usual, we had dinner at Ichiban @Tampines. We also had class BBQ @ Kim's and Eldo's Bday Celebration in school. Ahh. How I wish school was a place for socializing training purposes. I wouldn't mind at all.

Babes from KL came down, Kelly and Callie. Awesome time we had . ;)

And I finally learnt how to play poker, and owned the guys. (Y)

A Little Piece Of Heaven.

2011-02-26T03:21:00.000+08:00

I decided to give up Fencing, eventhough I really liked it due to inconvenience. :(

Ran about 3 km today? Proud of myself!

The song is stuck in my head, thanks to ryan and bryan!

3rd week of proper lessons and I just failed my first Math test. Oh well.

Had Rockafella yesterday(Friday night), then out for dinner/supper with 3/4 of the class,awesome time with the jokers.

Okay, I know my post is very unorganised. But it's 3.17 and I just feel like ranting!

DILEMMA.

2011-02-12T17:29:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

Matriculation Week.

2011-02-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

Hello peeps!

Happy Chinese New Year!

I've been on hiatus due to Orientation @ SRJC and CJC.

SR was truly a nice place to be in. School Facilities that had been constantly upgraded, friendly and casual environment and also the 4 out of 5 non-uniform school days when you can wear school berms and polo tee which is kinda cool.

However, I'd decided to choose CJC, and so far, things have been alright for me. It's really a school where you can have fun. In terms of classmates, well, due to my subject combination, there's only 5 girls in my class and the other 19 souls are all men! Oh well, feels like home again, where we women are outnumbered by men(3 men, 2 women at home.)

Chinese New Year back at home was really amazing, especially food. No Malaysian will ever forget about Malaysian food ! They're A-W-E-S-O-M-E. Few more additional red packets as there were two newly weds in the family! And I'm going to be an aunt to 3rd child of the next generation soon!

My Favourite Jumpsuit!

<3!

Gonna google some econs terms! Will update soon!

Wishlist.

2011-01-25T16:46:00.000+08:00

With sales everywhere and Chinese New Year just around the corner, there are so many items that I want to get!

I know my birthday won't be until April but I guess I can start on my wishlist. TEE HEE.

They're not in any order, I'm just putting down anything that comes to my mind.

GAP Hoodie!

I know it's freakingly hot in Singapore/Malaysia, nonetheless I think they'll be perfect when I study @ the library or anywhere airconditioned!

Kikki.K Organizer!

It's so pretty right! But January's coming to an end. Hmmm, maybe someone can get me this as a belated Xmas Present? Better late than never. ;)

HTC HD7

Well, I've gotta renew my contract. But the thing is, this thing still costs about SGD 500. So, will anyone please be so very kind to sponsor me? 50%? No? :(

Freitag Messenger Bags!

Depending on the size, the center one(Blue, White Striped) costs about SGD300. Each and every Freitag bag is unique.

Quoted from the Freitag homepage. :

FREITAG has been manufacturing bags and accessories for women and men since 1993. Our materials are used, having seen service on the road. They are well-travelled truck tarpaulins, unravelled seat belts, bicycle inner tubes beyond repair, recycled airbags. Tough stuff - which makes our products tough, too. As for us, we are Swiss, which means we are acutely quality-conscious. We apply our recycled materials in a totally new way, insisting on superlative design and functionality. Every FREITAG product is made from original tarpaulins of different colours, markings and contours. So every FREITAG product is a one-off.

FREITAG bags are on sale at our online shop, in our FREITAG Flagship Shops (Berlin, Davos, Hamburg, Cologne and Zurich) and in 300 shops round the world. '

Going green comes with a price too .!

Up till now, I guess that's all .

Till next time.

The days.

2011-01-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

I miss those days when we can have long conversations without having to think hard to find a topic. I miss those days when we're so comfortable with each other that we can just tell each other anything. I miss those days that we don't judge each other. I miss those days when anger,disappointment and sadness were all gone when I'm with you.I miss being happy.

What happened to those days?

Wednesday Nights.

2011-01-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

Gong Cha(Bubble Tea) @ Our Secret Garden. <3.

Sakae Sushi buffet after that. It was damn filling!

Clarke Quay to camwhore!

Night view @ Vivo.

Love my girls! It was a 20 dollar outing!Glad that I didn't buy anything. ;)

First Weeek!

2011-01-15T22:09:00.001+08:00

I'm relieved but not satisifed.

3rd day back in Singapore and had an awesome time with my babes. Shopped like nobody's business, and us girls feeling guilty has decided to have a $30 20 outing next week. Can't wait to torture myself. Heh. <3!

Watched burlesque, Where got Ghost(x2) this week.

I'm gonna start my year right by doing some financial planning.

Oh, did I mention that I signed up for Fitness First? Hahaha. Someone said ''Too much money ah(when I can actually jog around FOR FREE the reservoir)'', but then, they've got sauna and pretty changing rooms! Plus, money does the magic, I guess it'll motivate me. Maybe I'll go there everyday, to make sure what I paid for was worth it. Anyone wants to join me? HEHEHEHE.

I'm also almost done with my CNY shopping. I've gotta stop wearing those new clothes! oh well.

Oh no, This is not going to happen to me, don't worry. Once I get the hang of exercising, that's it . I'm done with it. ;)

14 more hours.

2011-01-10T00:17:00.001+08:00

Damn.

Anxious.

2011-01-07T02:29:00.000+08:00

Sigh.

7 Jan, 2.21 am.

I've lost count of how many nights have I been unable to sleep. Every time I close my eyes, I can't stop thinking about my results. The thought of scoring L1R5 below 10? It was once an ambition, a target, it was so close but yet, it's just impossible now.

I know it doesn't matter which school I go to, because in the end, it's all up to me to mould my path. But yet, the pint of regret, the surge of anger is still there, inside me. I know I should be realistic, stop regretting and move on, and try to make my life a better one, but I can't.

Sleepless nights, having to think of it every single day, it just kills me.

I wish I can take a peek at my results slip right now.

Sigh.

To stay or to fly? Which route to take? All the dilemmas.

Sigh.

If only life was only about partying,having fun and socializing.

never before.

2011-01-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

1/1/11

Happy New Year people! Hope everyone will have a great year ahead!

30/12: Kelly's Sweet 16. It was an awesome one. And I hope you did enjoy yourself, silly girl. Love you.:)

F&N soda drinks with CocaCola,100 plus, chilli sauce and soya bean instead of Hoegaarden for 'Beer' pong!

31/12-Countdown party with the awesomes.

Met new friends, mingled around, lunch with the girls, and party at night.

Boxing Day.

2010-12-26T11:11:00.000+08:00

Rise and Shine peeps!

Christmas's over, but I doubt that the decorations in shopping malls will be taken down THAT soon. Perhaps after New Year's?

Anyways, Just a brief update.

21/12 (Tuesday), a simple yet sweet reunion with my oldest friends(primary school friends).

And she called me shortie. :(

22/12 (Wed), had my undang test!(Test for driving theory), and I passed. TEE HEE.

23/12(Thurs), chilled out at Starbucks and spent time rubbing magic lamp at Alibaba with Natalie. Great day.

Alright, there's more to come next week! Sunway,BSW date, sleepover at Kel's, sleepover at Jing's and Countdown!

I'll reflect upon myself, and my resolutions in the next post. <3!

Confessions.

2010-12-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

In the blink of an eye, 2010's going to end in 2 weeks time. Can't believe I'm turning 17 next year, and soon, I'll have my driving licence. I guess, the next thing I'll know is that I'm out of school and will be working.

As we grow up, we make mistakes. Oh, maybe I should say, we make mistakes, that's why we grow up.

If I can turn back time, I'll do the following.

To 2007, I wish I would have thought before I act.
To 2008, I wish I was a better person, wish I hadn't stop dance classes(I know this is abit LOL, WTF).
To 2009, I wish I wasn't that irrational, careless and naive.
To 2010, I wish I didn't screw up my future, because I was careless, emotional, irrational and stupid.

But it's all the past, I guess I can only learn from mistakes, and try to make 2011, a better year.

Oh, and before 2010 ends,I want to eat lots and lots of Ice Cream!

2010-12-09T12:29:00.001+08:00

Okay, I was reading straits time online and I found this.

S'poreans hit by 'mobile phone syndrome'

A MAJORITY of Singaporeans are constantly thinking that their mobile phones are ringing, reported Sin Chew Daily.
It said that a random survey of 50 people found that some 80 per cent of them suffered from the mobile phone syndrome.
They would check their mobile phones incessantly to see if they were ringing or if there were any missed calls or messages.
A psychiatrist blamed this syndrome on stress.
'Such people should learn to relax to avoid stress taking over their daily life,' said the psychiatrist.
The psychiatrist advised sufferers to switch off their mobile phones or avoid answering their phones for a period of time. -- THE STAR/ANN

Though I'm not a Singaporean , but I do feel that sometimes. I mean, nowadays, it's a common scene, not only in Singapore, but in K.L as well, TRUE?

*Taken from http://www.straitstimes.com/BreakingNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_611955.html

Made In Candy(Singapore).

2010-12-08T23:05:00.002+08:00

Prologue:

I've never done an advertorial post before, and I have no idea how to start. I have limited vocabulary and I'm not capable of making you drool while reading. So please forgive if this post bores you, or perhaps have wasted your precious time. Nonetheless, I still think that it doesn't hurt to just give it a shot? :) Also, best things in life must be shared. :)

Made in Candy does not only have nice and quaint handmade rock candies, but also nice candy chefs.

-The usual butterfly rock.Available in Made In Candy,United Square.

Aren't they pretty? :)

If you have no idea which flavour to choose, just get yourself A Jar of Everything! :)

**I always get this, because I'm so fickle minded. ;)

Anyways, during this Christmas season, they have decided to rock our Christmas by coming up with nicer, awesome-r and cuter candy rocks!

Instead of the usual one you see everytime you enter the Made in Candy Shop, there's a special edition for this festive season!

yes, Christmas rocks. :)

Quality sealed Christmas Candy:)

Apart from changing the packaging, the chefs have also come up with Christmas themed designs for the Candies! I'm really impressed man. It's definitely not an easy job.!

This is my favourite!Snowflake.:) It has the minty feeling and it cools your mouth. :)

HOW ON EARTH IS THIS POSSIBLE MAN. IT'S SO PROPORTIONATE.

What's Christmas without a Christmas tree?

Oh, I missed out the cute Rudolph too!

Who doesn't love Christmas gifts? So, hurry and get yourself and your friends a jar of Christmas Rocks.

You can get it at Takshimaya Food Hall(in front of Harrods), Ngee Ann City, Orchard Road!Also, you'll get to see pretty sales promoters. ;)

There's 70g too, but I'm not really sure about the price.

200g at $19.00.

It's more than enough for a month or even two! Buy a jar, and you do not have to buy any other candies anymore!

*If you're interested in how these candies are being made, please click here.

Just like the old times.

2010-11-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

I wanted to try an ad post today, but I'm just too lazy to do it. HEHEH/

Anyways, met up with the lovely people and the feeling's great. It really brings smiles to our faces when we talk about what we used to do, the trouble we used to create and the fun we used to have.

Can't wait for Jessie and Jiayng to come back in December. It'll be then like the old times.

At the same time, I just want to say... I'M SUPER FAT NOW. SHIT.

Parents and FRIENDS have been stuffing me with lots and lots of food. GOOD FOOD btw. HEHEHHEE.:)

Food.

2010-11-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

Morning flight at 7.25 tomorrow but yet I'm still awake.

This time, when I go back, I'm gonna eat and eat and eat and eat all the good food.

(Okay la, Singapore has good Fried Prawn Noodles. ;))

Good things in life must be shared, and I therefore present you all the mouthwatering photos of them :)

Both are Ondes Ondes. Give comments on which one looks nicer and cuter! :):)

Asam Laksa! Penang has the best. :)

Cheese Crab! The bread(brown thing on the left) when eaten with the sauce is awesome! Any recommendations on where(in KL) has the best cheese crab? :)

Okay, I can't think anymore. Any other good food you people would like to recommend as well? :)

Revamped.

2010-11-26T05:23:00.002+08:00

Finally revamped my blog!

No more plain colors, and I'll try to stick to uploading at least one photo-per post.:)

Anyway, please leave a comment and give some feedback!

Time to get some sleep! Nights people. :)

Graduation Bear.<3!

Transparent.

2010-11-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

我吃玻璃长大的，因为每个人都当我是透明的。

subconsciousmind.

2010-11-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

Long bus rides allows me to think about how screwed up(or in an optimistic way, reflect upon the mistakes I have made) my life is.

I thought I have gotten over it.

But no, deep inside, I still dare not accept the fact that I have screwed up my whole future.

Sigh.

If I really screwed up and don't get the minimum of what I aim for, I think I might as well just go and die.

Parents get to save money, I don't have to live my miserable life.Win-Win Situation.

Restart.

2010-11-21T13:26:00.000+08:00

I need a change. I don't know how, I don't know what. But I need it.
Perhaps I'll figure it out someday, hopefully before 2011.

So far, my daily routine has been like the following:
1.Wake up at mid noon.
2. Rush and head out. (Shopping, pool, eat, walk, eat,movie,etc)
3. Back home at 8/9.
4.Wash up and start using comp-either blog shopping or watch South Park till 3/4am.
5. The cycle starts again.

Hmm, so far one of the most productive thing I did was to FINALLY finish reading my "A million little pieces" by James Frey.It's and autobiography! It's about how the days of this crackhead cum alcoholic in a rehab and finally when he was out of it, he never relapsed. The moral of the story is : Whatever you do, you have a choice to decide. But sadly, it was said that some parts of the book were exaggerated.

I feel like eating macaroons! HEHEHEHE.

Hypocrites?

2010-11-19T20:08:00.000+08:00

First week of holiday just slipped away. 2011 is coming soon, I just wish that it'll be a whole new decade for me to start over again. Just leave everything behind, and push the restart button.

I hope my holidays can be a lil' more productive. I said I've been dying to learn French, but now I'm just too lazy to do so. TEE HEE.

anyone know of anywhere that needs temp staff for one week?!

précis.

2010-11-17T00:09:00.000+08:00

Finally I've marked off something on my to-do-list. It feels good after O Levels, one less burden now.

Anyways, spent time with the girlfriends on Saturday, watched Unstoppable on Saturday, class bbq on Sunday, watched Due Date on Monday with the Izi hubby and watched RED today.

Ahh.

I need to start doing something productive and meaningful, something like getting myself a book to read. Please comment if you know of any good books that you would like to recommend.:) Thank you.:)

Since I'm holding a SPass in Singapore and that I'll be staying here for another week only, I'll mostly get a job when I get back to KL. What and where to work? idk:(

Lalala.

Okay, gonna watch HPotter tomorrow. Don't be jealous that I got the seats! teehee!

Nights people.

<3! :)

Self Proclaimed.

2010-11-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

One more paper and I'm officially free.

Today was horrible. Venice certainly saved lots of people, but many people died too, including me. Well, for me it wasn't that bad, at least I did read through. But I had to think hard, which took up lots of time. So, I left out 2 SBQ questions(which costs me 14m) and I wasn't even done with the 13m essay question. Moreover, 3 of my pens decided to play trick on me. Oh well, bye bye humans. From and A2 to an E8. Who said that if you do well in prlims, you'll be fine?

No one to be blamed but myself.

Oh well.

Judgements.

2010-11-05T23:53:00.002+08:00

Right now, at this moment, I'm really curious about how people perceive me. I wonder if they really know me or they just judge. But the truth is, I don't even know who I am. Oh, the irony.

Troubled little girl.

2010-11-04T12:03:00.000+08:00

It's utterly disappointing and heartbreaking when someone tells you that yes, they'll be there for you but in fact, they're the people who are the reason your blog is filled with emo posts.

I always wonder what do others perceive me as? I know it's something that I can't control, or netither should I care, but I'm really really curious. SO PLEASE LEAVE YOUR MESSAGE IN THE CBOX. :)

For me, I hate hi-bye friends. It's not that I'm always serious, it's just that I want to make each and every friend of mine , special in someway. I know I sound a lil' emotional and serious, but I guess it's just who I am?

All the above don't link, and I dont know why I'm typing all these.

I guess I just want to say, NOBODY IN THIS WORLD IS CONSIDERATE AND UNDERSTANDING BECAUSE THEY ARE JUST FUCKED UP SELF CENTERED PEOPLE.

Inequalities.

2010-10-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

I traded ~~carefree/stressfree/enjoyable/ happy~~ awesome life for a fucked up one.

Pretty Face.

2010-10-29T21:43:00.001+08:00

I don't have beautiful eyes.
I don't have porcelain skin.
I'm not skinny.
I'm not smart.
I'm not the kindest person ever.
I'm not the most interesting and humorous person.
I'm not the most outgoing girl.

i'm not the perfect girl whom you always wanted me to be.

But I am me. And so what if I live a screwed up life?

Fucked Up.

2010-10-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

Hello, Science Practical was fucked up. Don't even feel like talking about it.

Lunch with the girls, watched Child's Eye. Scared like fuck, but whatever.

Many other things running in my mind, wish there can be just someone there to listen to me, and give me constructive advices and really really comforting comments. But there's no one who is going to be that someone because everyone is either too fucked up themselves or they just don't want to give a fuck about other people's feelings.

Okay, this post has lots of fuck in it but I dont know how else to express my anger and frustration because just by typing fuckingly hard is just insufficient.

Gonna fuck off.
Fuck you bitches(Love you darlings)

Graduation.

2010-10-15T21:07:00.000+08:00

I've graduated from BHSS!

Part of me is extremely happy because I don't have to be afraid to wake up late anymore. No more attire checks, no more flag raising, and all the bull shit routines that we have to do every single school day.

Part of me feels sad, because honestly my life in Singapore= my life in BHSS , for now. It's where I met people, made friends etc etc. I certainly hate the school and teachers to a certain extent, but I have had great memories there as well. Band Camp, Sec 3 Camp(okay, it was at the Labrador Park), the recesses with the girls, etc etc. But despite all these, nothing would have been awesome without my fellow classmates. We, okay at least I, have gone through lots of shit. Dramas in life, misunderstandings with people, being gossiped and gossiping about people, but despite all these, we have decided to let all these pass, well, at least we were happy on Grad Day itself.

I guess picture paints more than a thousand words, and I shall present you...

the link for the photos!

I shall post of my favourite and my most hated photo as well. :)

At least I did put a smile on your face right? Love!

espresso cravings.

2010-10-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

Have a break, have a kit kat.

*Chyn, rmb you bought this when you came back from Japan few years back? ;)

Insecure.

2010-10-03T09:32:00.000+08:00

You asked me why can't it be just me and you, I didn't reply.

But the truth is I need more people in my life, and I feel insecure when it's only me and you.

Because it feels as if you're just going to walk out of my life anytime, any moment.

2nd weekend in the row wasted. What happened to the drive in me? What happened to the just-do-anything-that-I-possibly-can-to-get-what-I-want attitude? I think I kinda lost in along the way when I started to realize whatever I do is just not enough to even deserve any fucking encouragement. I'm not doing well for anyone's sake,I'm not doing well for people's attention, but at least I believe that I deserve someone to tell me that I have done a great job and that I'll keep it up. What is wrong with the world, seriously? Just because I study smart, but not study hard means that I'm not working hard? FUCK YOU.

The usual study session> met Jaslyn and AiAi at Starbucks >Wilson came = joke session >Town with the rest of AiAi's friends.

I'm still waiting for YiJing Thang to upload photos so that my blog won't be such an angry place.

Reminiscence.

2010-09-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

It feels good to be back here. Away from the stress, the fast paced life, the having-to-take care-of myself stress, and just give myself a break.

Spent time with the awesome friends in the evening, having chats and talks just like the usual times. Although I have been away for more than a year, almost two, and frankly speaking we have not been really contacting each other very often(except for a few), but I can feel that our friendship is still going strong. It just all came back to me, the jokes, the insults, the atmosphere, the kind of laughter. Although I just saw them 2 hours ago, but it's just really sad that I'm leaving tomorrow and it'll be until december till I see them.

And once I return to Singapore, that'll mean exams, exams and more exams. But I'm glad that I have the bunch of crazy girls who are the reason for me to stay there, the reason for me to really enjoy the last year of my secondary school life. Thanks girls.

And as for the band investiture I had two days ago, I would say it was really awesome and I am going to miss the juniors, and most importantly the people. Band has given me a chance to learn skill, to allow me to interact with people, to allow me to gain more experience in performing on stage, during events, and definitely I have gain ample of knowledge throughout. I have met really awesome people like Shang Zhi, Sandy, Anna, Justina, Grace and the list still goes on. Eventhough I'm just merely a new comer who didn't contribute much to the band but I have lots of memories about it and I am sure that when i grow up, and when I recall, this is the part of 2009/2010 that I will never ever forget.

All I have to say is, thank you people for being part of my life and I can't imagine my life without you people.

that's it.

2010-09-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

everything is just so sickening.

I'm bad tempered, you're so self centered. I'm so sensitive, you're so oblivious to everything around you. Both of us are the kind who would do anything to get what we want.

Like poles repel.

Sometimes I wonder, what happened to the optimistic and cheerful side of me?

Did I lose it on the way here?

Screwed.

2010-09-15T15:57:00.000+08:00

Prelim is a goner.

unfair.

2010-09-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

Life is unfair.
To be honest, I never believed this shit. I always told myself that as long as I work hard for what I want, do my best, I will get what I want. Apparently I was so fucking wrong.

To me, there's always a boundary between the black and white. If you're wrong, you're wrong; or vice versa. Occasionally, I will analyse matters from different perspectives, but also, always black and white. I always thought this is how life is going to be, how it's supposed to be.

Keith once told me, when you grow up,you'll realize things are not only about black or white, but also grey.

I never understood that, until this year.

Things didn't go smoothly last year, and I sorta ruined my reputation or impression. Nevertheless, I gave my best and did what I was supposed to do. Apparently, that's not enough.

In this world that is filled with judgement, prejudice, human politics, whatever not, the most important is not that you do your best; but you please other people.

Sometimes I wonder why am I working so hard? For myself? But what is joy without a single soul to share with? What is pride without recognition? What is family when they do not give support and approval of what you do? What are friends when they are not there to lend you their shoulders when you need them?

I'm really sick of these shit and I want to get out of this school asap. But I believe that no matter where I go, things will always be the same.

Because this is just how the world goes.

officially.

2010-09-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

I've been staying/living here for one week in exact. The place is alright, somewhere free from the "ding ding dong dong" from construction sites. Maybe it's a good thing that this place is at the outskirts, because I'll have to think twice when someone asks me out.

Today's the last day of the September week break too. I think today is the most productive of all. Maybe when we realize we're going to lose something, we'll cherish and appreciate it more. 6 hours of studying. Too much? I don't think so.That of course, is nothing compared to the others who want to achieve the same as me. 5 more weeks, grace. I sure do not want to regret in the future.

oh well. SS and Physics tomorrow. wish me luck peeps.
love.

turn over a new leaf.

2010-09-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

Today is a day of several important occasions.

Keith Ng, my eldest brother is turning 23 today. I admit I find him really irritating at times, to the extent that I feel like slapping him, but I swear, he's the sweetest yet the most childish brother ever. Even as a working adult, he tries to act as if he's still a teenager. And, he gave me a portion of his first pay. He also bought me BOY'S boardshorts when he came back from the states several years back. Now that we're apart, he's up north and I'm down south, I guess our distant drifted apart. But no, it didnt. Because he'll call me at the most random time, talk to me for at least 30 mins, whether was it telling me which path to choose for the future, or just even the simplest concern a brother shows to his younger sister. I love you irritant, please eat more and work out more often, I want a sister in law.

Parents came down today. (Okay, maybe not so important.)

Moved house.Bye TPY, hello Zoo.

Double date for haunted changi tomorrow! I'm having cold feet. Maybe I shouldn't go.

sickening.

2010-09-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

6 more days of exam to go. AMath Paper 1 was supposed to be doable, with a little careless mistakes here and there, I guess I've got no choice but to work extremely hard for my Paper 2. Food and Nutrition theory paper was alright, even though most of them were questions that we've never attempted before.

Geography and EMath tomorrow. I love geography, but I'm just both so physically and mentally tired. I swear I can fall asleep among this pile of books which is scattered all over my bed. I'm glad that the September one week break is coming up. I swear I'm gonna get do anything and everything to get the results that I want.

Almost 1 month and 3 weeks to actual O's and I feel like I'm about to break down and give up, but I won't.

At the mean time, I miss them.

and

JerVenn, Ashley,JingWei,Jiayng, NatalieLah, JinYang, Jeng Fatt.

ZhiLe,Callie,Kelly, JiaJun,Jason,RonKit,KhaiLi.

I just need someone who can give me practical advices. Is that too much to ask?

2010-08-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

Screw EL prelim. Having breathing difficulties, unwanted person in the class, tough comprehension passage, nothing was good.

Screw twitter for showing me that fucking whale.

Screw my life.

Unappreciated.

2010-08-18T20:05:00.001+08:00

Who gives a shit about your O level Chinese results when you're the only youngest daughter/sister who is still schooling?

The only thing they care about is how much money you make.

What do I want to be?

2010-08-11T23:28:00.003+08:00

I want to be a doctor because I want to save lives.

I want to be a teacher because I want to contribute to the the society.

I want to become a banker because I love money.

I want to become a personal shopper because I love shopping.

I want to become a socialite because I want to party and I love flash lights.

I want to be myself , but I forgot who I am.

Putting back the pieces.

2010-08-09T00:37:00.003+08:00

Come on Gracie, this is not the time to breakdown. 76 more days, and every second is ticking.

No time to hide one corner and cry, or even just waste my time trying to get all these shit out of my head.

2010-08-07T10:58:00.001+08:00

They say treat others like how you would like to be treated.

Where is everyone when I need someone?

2010-08-06T20:02:00.001+08:00

I have to keep moving on because there won't be anyone to catch me when I fall.

Best Actor.

2010-08-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

I hate it when people show care and concern for you.

Because we both know that you're just another fucking liar and an actor.

And that among the teachers, it is me that has caused you to become so, but oh, did you tell them about your new flings and girlfriends?

I'm not guilty.

But I'm raging.

Focus.

2010-07-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

Life is getting worse day by day. It's not that I'm being pessimistic about it, but it's the truth. I do not understand the fact that the more I study and revise, the worse I get. I've been flunging most of my tests and I don't know what's wrong. I'm getting more emotional and I somehow find it hard to focus recently.

Prelims are just around the corner and I certainly want to do well, and I just have to try my best to get myself back up again.

Or perhaps I'm just sick of everything?

Inception is an awesome movie. I like the whole idea and the concept.:)

Flea tomorrow with the girls again, I hope I can feel as excited when it comes to studying.

I'm going to screw up my coursework B.

Sense of urgency.

2010-07-24T11:39:00.000+08:00

34 days to preliminary exams.

15 weeks to O's.

Stress. Stress. Stress.

What are we supposed to do?

2010-07-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

Term 3 Week 2 is coming to an end. In fact, tomorrow's the last day of the 2nd week.

I'm glad that splendours is over, and it wasn't as awesome as how they described it. Perhaps it was just that location as the backstage wasn't very spacious. But anyways, National Band Competition is tomorrow and I hope we'll at least grab a silver medal. I wouldn't say that we'll want to get a gold as that goal is way too unrealistic. But whatever it is, we'll just have to do our best. :) Next, performance at One Fullerton(Merlion) next Saturday with Chestnut Drive Sec. and another primary school.

After which, we're done and over with this whole thing. :)

However, there's remedial sessions for 2 hours daily after school. Just 4 more months to O Levels, perhaps that's why teachers are pushing so hard and I am trying too. But sometimes it just doesn't work. I definitely do not want to ruin my future because of my immaturity, being unable to prioritizing tasks and of course plain laziness.

we are family.

2010-06-23T02:35:00.000+08:00

Carl's Junior,Toy Story 3 in 3D, WK restaurant, Baskin Robbins ice cream.

Pool was supposed to come after, but Ong Choon Wei cheated my feelings. :(

miss them to the max.

*Jing, I need the other photos, especially.. :)

Innocence.

2010-06-17T17:56:00.000+08:00

Home sweet home? Perhaps not. But I love the friends here. :)

Met up with some of the childhood besties yesterday. Spent time together at Kelly and JiaJun's place. I miss the times though, really reminds me of how we used to joke around and how our friendship still remain as strong. :)

<3. :)

Gonna meet the crazy people tomorrow. Miss them ttm too. Can't wait to see...! =)

Rawr!

xoxo.

Nerdified.

2010-06-05T21:33:00.001+08:00

I spent my Saturday doing homework! Kinda proud but actually not because I didn't complete what I'm supposed to.

Anyways, it's the holidays now. In fact,today's the last day of the first week of hols. Time really flies. It's worse than bullet train! So much to do within 1817 weeks! :(

GSSales are on now too. But I'm left with 0 money to shop! Well, I did shop but it's not enough.There's still so many things on my wishlist.! I really wish O's over and I can do whatever I want, including working. :) I even know what job I'm gonna get. :) Anyways, wishlist. : flats, sneakers, dresses, T-SHIRTS, handbags, accesories.

NOT TOO MUCH TO ASK RIGHT? :)

okay, till next time. xoxo.

Hubby came to Singapore on Monday with her family. Met up with her on Wednesday with Judith. :)

Ash is coming next week and Xuan's coming on the week after. They're taking turns to visit me! How loving. :)

That Day.

2010-05-23T17:20:00.001+08:00

I kinda like this one.

Go watch this video, it's hilarious!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=viHAJ5P2rhM&feature=player_embedded

Take a deep breath.

2010-05-16T11:07:00.000+08:00

Finally, finally, finally.
I've completed my FnN practical on Friday. MYE ended on Friday too. Glad that I can now give myself a break over the weekends and enjoy myself(yes, I did). INTENSIVE chinese for the next two weeks especially tomorrow, 8 periods of Chinese. NICE.

For once I'm going to stop blogging about school.

Met up with the Shanghai Trip people yesterday : Melcia, Jing Yi,Agnes, Anggun, Grace, George, Reiki and Ze Xian. It was kinda irritating because they blindfolded us and led us to Reiki's house. Under the scorching sun! :( Anyways, lunch at Reiki's until his Chinese tutor came and we wanted to watch movie at Cineleisure but the tickets were sold out. :( Yoshinoya and TCC after that, the usual lame jokes and shooting-MX-down sessions.

Sunday today, had a lazy Sunday morning and I'm still thinking if I should get out of the house. I really want to go Haji Lane badly, for the shopping, but I just dont know who can make it. :(

I wish to upload photos but all the photos are with George. Will upload some of them once George puts it on Facebook.

xxx.

Knock Knock.

2010-05-09T20:42:00.000+08:00

Happy Mother's Day and Happy 16th Birthday Ivy Tan!

Anyways, I have been busy with studies and exams. They are seriously killing me. Sometimes I get so sick of them and I wonder what's the point of studying so hard. Sometimes I wonder, must life really be so unfair? No matter how hard I try, it just doesn't make a difference. Screwed up some papers, and tomorrow's Maths and Physics but I figured out that I'll just get more distracted by all these parasitic emotions that will eat me up.

I miss school when it was about enjoying every lessons with jokers cracking up lame stuffs. I miss the friends who would share everything and anything. I miss the times when talking to guys means you're friendly and amiable, instead of people calling you flirty. I miss the times when everyone was so innocent and pure, no lies, no putting up, no dramas, no backstabbing. I miss the times when I had someone to be there for me all the time, a shoulder for me to lean on, an arm around my waist telling me things will be alright. I miss having someone who understands how I feel and where I stand, and see things from my point of view instead of theirs. I miss all these little details. But reality has made me just wanting to cut all the connections with the outside world. Because they are just too scary.

Sweet 16.

2010-04-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Chien Teng, Melcia, Wei Bin, Xian Jun, A's Mum and Me! :)

If I were to rate today, I 'll rate it 8.
1 point deducted because my phone died.Another point deducted because of mock exam!:(

Thank you for those who wished me, thank you Anggun, WY, Jaslyn,Ivy, Amanda and goodf for the gifts. Thank you Joey, Sandy, Shang Zhi, XingYee,goodfriend, Amanda,Ivy,Jaslyn,JWen,Rush and Wilson for today too. Nothing grand and glamorous, but I like it simple and nice.
Thank you Mrs Cheah and the class too eventhough I was abit, shy about it. Hahah.:)

4 more hours till the day is over.Sweet 16 Grace.

Ordinary.

2010-04-17T23:02:00.000+08:00

Another busy yet mundane weekend.

I'm not going to rant about school or what. Just a little updates.

I'm glad that speech day is finally over. That means that no more rehearsals till 5 plus, reaching home at 6, and all sorts of crap.
Turning 16 in 2 weeks and I have no plans/mood to celebrate it.
It's 11pm but there's some sort of event happening downstairs which is very very noisy and I can't focus on my work.
I need to go to the national library to get information for my research but my membership card is expired and if I need renew I need to pay quite a sum.
I said I wouldn't complain about anything but after re reading, that's exactly what I'm/was doing.
I'm so tired that I feel like sleeping right now right here in the living room

Lost.

2010-04-04T20:49:00.000+08:00

Long weekends but I was kinda busy throughout and I think I might need another few more days. How I wish time can at least stop to let me catch another breath. I'm seriously tired.There's tests next week and I still haven't gone to Ikea.Not to mention Mid Year's in 4 weeks.

I know by the time I finish typing this post I could have finished revision for another chapter but I just need to let it all out.

The weekend back home was kinda cruel because it forced me to face issues that I have been running away from.

Questions from aunts asking which course I want to pursue, a question that I has always been neglecting. Time is flying and I'm graduating from secondary school in 7 months. Soon enough, I'll graduate from college/poly and go to uni and into the working world. Too soon to say, but that's how things work. Because the last thing I remembered was my younger cousin sister who was once so crazy over Barbie dolls is now in Primary 4.

I'm wondering, is life supposed to be study, earn money and die? Or life is supposed to be doing things u like everyday? The latter sounds like a fairytale, but I've seen live examples. But I don't think I have found that one thing, that I have a passion for, the one thing that I don't mind doing it for the rest of my life.

What's the aim of your life?

Stressed.

2010-03-31T22:06:00.000+08:00

There's tests for almost everyday next week and another one on the subsequent week.
I'm unable to study this weekend because I'll be away.
FnN practical is next friday and I'm kinda nervous because I heard Onde Onde is a high skilled dish.
Mid Year's in four weeks and I've forgotten most of the Sec 3 work.
Teacher hasn't complete the sylllabus and I guess we're expected to study on our own.
Chinese O's in 2 month's time.
7 months to O Levels.
I'm very utterly uber stressed.
I'm reconsidering which JC to go, because everything just seems so unrealistic after looking at my results.
There's Geog and English test tmrw and I just need to let it all out.

Life is not great at all.

floorball.

2010-03-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

Sports Day today was not as good as last year's. A few new add ons here and there: "Aerobic" Exercise, but it was more of a dance class, floorball, handball and table tennis. My name was down for floorball, and I was reluctant to go at first, since I didn't know how to play. But I LIKE FLOORBALL NOW. :) HEHEHE.
Got 2nd place even though we scored 0, because topaz and garnet didn't play. So lucky right.:)
Emerald is the champion house, once again! :)

Okay. I'm going to rest and shall resume work later! :)

awesome weekend.

2010-03-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

Radikal Forze 12th anni. Jam was awesomee. It's a pity that Judith couldn't turn up. Fantastic performances from Thai, Vietnam,China,Australia etc etc, great music, nice people.It was tiring, as we stood for 8 hours, but it was fun and worth it. :)
Left for dinner/supper at Mcs after the jam. Laughed and joked till morning. Karen drove us home. Thanks!
:)

Woke up this morning, met up with PeiLing, shopped for ingredients/ groceries. Went to Catherine's house to cook.Left for Alice in the Wonderland 3D in Orchard Cineleisure. I kinda liked the movie! THUMBS UP. I like the Mad Hatter.:) Anyways, went back to Cat's house to pick up our stuffs. Had Udders with Pei Ling for supper. :)

Highly Motivated.?

2010-03-12T22:53:00.001+08:00

Last Day of school today was. AWESOME.not.

Slept quite early yesterday to complete my assignments.People only tend to realize the urgency of things only when the deadline is approaching.

Woke up this morning and realize it was already 7.30. Cabbed to school, and as it was my 2nd time for being late, my ez link got "confiscated".

Term 1 is gone just like that. Looking back, I've not made any effort, have I? Results have not met my expectations, or am I demanding too much? But perhaps, that's why it's called a goal.

I am determined to make full use out of my Mar hols.

But still, work hard, play hard. That's what life is all about.

PMT.

2010-03-11T15:56:00.000+08:00

Parents Meet Teachers Session today was alright, except I received an untrue negative feedback from a teacher. How disappointing. Anyways, I had a,b,c and F9. Hehe.

Mummy came, PMT,lunch, shopping for 1 hour and she left. Perhaps she just reached Changi as I'm typing this.Thanks for coming down eventhough you're busy.

Okay, I shall get back to my home based learning.Bye Bye.

2010-03-07T20:01:00.002+08:00

I know I'm kinda late, but good luck to those in SMSM who are having exams.:D

xoxo.

10th week.

2010-03-06T18:59:00.001+08:00

Week 10 of Term 1 is going to start in two days. 2010 is real fast. 2 months gone, 1 more month to sweet 16. Parents Meet Teachers on Thursday. Guardian couldn't make it so mum's coming down to see Mrs Cheah. I hope she'll give positive feedbacks about me, and no more misunderstands whatsoever. Failed humanities for the first time. I don't want to have a second time. Anyways, woke up early this morning and wanted to be a full time nerd. End up I was cramping like mad, lied on the bed doing nothing for 5 hours. HAHAHA.

March holidays are coming in just a week, but no I'm not looking forward towards it.Exams on Monday and Tuesday, workshop @ SP on Wednesday, workshop in school for FnN on Thursday, Band on Friday.

Apart from the workshop@ SP, I seriously do not look forward to any one of them.

Oh well, off to finish up my English Summary and am determined to finish Physics and AMath by today.
CLICK ON MY NUFFNANGS PLEASE!

love.

2010-02-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Uzma! :)

I miss having you behind me,when I will turn to and talk and get sarcastic comments from Ms. Lee.

But you know i'll love you always wu zi ma! :)

2010-02-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Jer Venn!

I miss you!

Different Perspectives.

2010-02-27T17:23:00.000+08:00

Week 8 of school came to and end yesterday. 2 more weeks to the end of term.How fast, how stress.I've been trying to motivate myself to just sit down and study for 2 solid hours, but to no avail. Giving myself pressure doesn't work, because it just ends up that i'll spend time on destressing more than working.

Met up with Judith and Ian for dinner yesterday.
Met up with Gerard for lunch today. Thanks for notes.
Probably meeting PeiLing to teach her probability later.
Practicing one of my FnN dishes tomorrow.
March is coming up and Coursework B question will be out. Hope it wont be a tough question.

A lot has happened throughout the week. School, studies, friends and family. None of them are good news. Sometimes I wonder, does it even matter if I keep trying? Because it's just as if it does not make a difference, and sometimes I just feel like giving up.

I'm currently reading "Letters to Sam", which is a compilation of letters written from a grandfather to his autistic grandson. In those letters, there's lots of philosophies of life, how to live as a better person. Somehow, it just does not help, and perhaps, things are getting worse day by day.

Perhaps I'll just use some other ways.

Crossing fingers, hoping tomorrow will be a better day.

Different-iation.

2010-02-24T17:40:00.000+08:00

Chinese test was so difficult today but I'm glad that I didn't fall asleep this time. Proud of myself! :) Physics was a disappointment though.Careless mistakes here and there, as usual. I love what I learn in Physics, but I just can't do well in tests;ironically I hate Chemistry because of all the hydrogen pentoxide, manganese oxide, and all the shitty chemical substances, but my Chemistry tends to be better than my Physics. Oh well, perhaps it's something related to the subject that made this so. I don't know.

Anyways, Add Math test tomorrow and EMath test on Monday, which will be the last test of the term. YAY. I hope teacher won't surprise us with any more tests?

There's a seminar tomorrow too. People who opted to go JC need to stay until as late as 5.30.OMG. Why is life so unfair? :(

Prelim for Oral English is next Tuesday and I've never once tried doing Picture thing. Hopefully I wont screw it up. I mean, who would want to screw up Oral English.

Oh well, till next time.

xoxo.

Tagged.

2010-02-21T22:31:00.001+08:00

Tagged by hubby and nat.

Here's a simple game.
Answer all the questions below and tag 5 people.
Rules: You cannot answer the questions by repeating the previous answers.

State 5 facts of yourself that people know.

1. i'm a good girl. :D
2. i laugh as though I have asthma.
3. I love to shop. :D4. I have a red phone and a red bag.
5. I can't live without fcbk. :(
State 5 facts of yourself that people don't know

1. I reply short messages when I'm mad.
2. I blast music everyday.
3. I wont allow people to see my cry.
4. I dont like it when things dont go smoothly.
5. I skip meals.
State 5 bad behaviors of yourself

1. Impatient.
2. Stubborn.
3. Talks loudly when I'm high. :D
4. I can't stand being bored.:(
5. Bad temper.

State 5 good sides of you

1. Optimistic.
2. Cheerful, I smile no matter what.:)
3. Good listener. :)
4. Independent.
5. tell me people. :D

Now tag 5 people!

1. XingYee. :D
2 . Shang Zhi.
3 . Joyce.
4 . Jiayng.
5 . IV.

Chingay Parade.

2010-02-21T12:36:00.001+08:00

No City Alive party but I did enjoy my Saturday watching Chingay Parade with I, K, S and S.

The parade starts at 8, but we went there at 6.45. How smartttt! Lots of inside jokes, S couldn't stand anymore and went to take pictures with Edwarddd! :)

Yes, the guy in the middle with big head is Edward.:)

Anyways, the parade started and it was kinda awesome, lots of inside jokes again. :) Whole parade lasted for about 2h , went to Bugis after that. I passed my trial test with S saying " That's the way! " HAHAHA. :)

Oh well.

Fun yesterday, Hardwork today!

I shall study hardcore today. :)

lesson learnt.

2010-02-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

Hello people!

Chinese New Year holidays ended and I shall summarise what happened during CNY2010:)

Saturday(CNY eve):
met up with ng chyn for a few hours. The woman whom i haven't seen for two years. Did some catching up and went home at abt 2. Tea w grandma, went home for steamboat.:)

Sunday(First Day of CNY)
Had lunch, received angpau from parents, left for to visit relatives. Movie after that @ KLCC. True Legend will be nice if you life Chinese Martial Arts, sadly I don't.

Monday:
Happy Birthday Zhi Le!
Went back to mum's hometown, angpaus, gambling, taking photos. :)

Tuesday:

Lunch with cousins, went home, dinner,left for airport. Sadly, I was a FEW MINTUES late for check in and that's how I missed my flight. Fortunate enough, managed to get a last minute ticket back to Sg. Well, thanks to my parents. :)

OH BTW, I SHALL ATTACH A PHOTO OF MY BELOVED BUDDY.

5 hours.

2010-02-11T23:08:00.001+08:00

Hello World.

I'm glad that tomorrow is the last day of school before Chinese New Year,not because I'm flying back home, but because it's a longer weekend that I've been looking forward to.

This week has been a really busy week. Tests,tests and more test. I'm glad that it's all over, but the same routine is just going to repeat itself again after the CNY break.

Anyways, was looking forward for a day to rest and relax today, after all,the longest sleep I got this week was 5 hours.

However.

While I was in the bathroom while leaving my bedroom door open, I heard a slam. I assumed that it was just the usual wind-blow-door-slammed thing. After I cam out from my bedroom, I realised the bedroom was locked. Keys didn't work, neither did the hammer + screwdriver thing. Finally, a locksmith was needed. The door knob is officially dead, due to the attempt of breaking in.Oh well, change of knob tomorrow,right before I fly home.

WOW.

Anyways, I'm going to celebrate Vday in advanced with the girls tomorrow. Life is great without bastards. :)

I can't take it anymore.

February :)

2010-02-07T13:16:00.000+08:00

I've had a busy weekend!

Feb 5( Friday) :

Happy 20th Birthday Brother! :)

I hope you did enjoy your birthday celebration with your friends. I'll be back next week and we shall go makan besar! :) (Well, at least that was what Keith said.)

SS test was alright for that day, hope I don't fail. I don't want any D7s in my progress report book. Had Chinese ERP and then band. Sec 1s came in today. There's a total of 3 Koreans in band now.Cool or what! Had lunch with Shang Zhi, Joey and Justina after band, went home, met up with Ian to get presents for Judith.

Feb 6:

Woke up by Ian's call because I forgot to set my alarm. Met Judith at City Hall, luckily that blur sotong didn't take the wrong train. Had breakfast, walked around, went to Bras Basah, and Judith went back because she had Sunday Classes(which was on a Saturday,weird or what. ). Slacked in Bugis with sun bear, watched The Blind Side. That movie is awesome, it was based on a true story. I teared 75% of the movie. HAHAHA. Dinner at AMK with his friend, Kenji. Went home at 830.

Feb 7:

Woke up at 1000 in the morning, was determined to study Chemistry, got distracted and went to cleaned the room, packed my bag and blogged.

Happy Birthday ShangZhi too!

I'm glad that I met you and I'm proud to have you as my friend. :)

Forgotten.

2010-02-04T00:53:00.005+08:00

Hello! 0053 am in the morning and it's already Thursday. 1 More day and the week is going to come to an end. First week of Feb, just gone like that.

Will be having AMath test ~~tomorrow~~ later. I'm so stressed out because I don't know a shit. I dont want to flung my first test, and I guess that's the only thing that is keeping me awake.

FnN tomorrow, that's why I have to look for 2 more recipes too.

I will not allow you to disrupt my thoughts and ruin my day anymore.

Physics.

2010-02-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

I should be studying physics, memorizing the uses of gamma ray/xray/infared ray/ whatever fcked up ray.

But instead, I've decided to blog and again, complain about how hectic school life has been.

I've been staying up for a few consecutive nights to collect 20 recipes, trying to finish up the work over the weekends, so and so forth. All the hard work that I've put in? Out of the 20 recipes, 17 got rejected. And I even got a package deal, I have been waking up late and missing the bus for a few days. Was late for the first time last Thursday, and supposedly today. Somehow, the DMs allowed us to join our class after flag raising ceremony. I hope I won't be late anymore because I dont want my phone to get confiscated. :(

CNY is coming up and I really want to party and have fun. But I'm going back home, so I guess, nothing special this year?

Tests coming up:-

Physics and Chinese tmrw, AMath on Thursday, SS on Friday, Chem on Monday and Geog on Tuesday.

WISH ME LUCK.

apple.

2010-01-30T23:55:00.001+08:00

G said that he will buy me a macbook pro if I score 6 pts for L1R5.

YAY! :)

Assignments, again.

2010-01-29T19:10:00.002+08:00

Weekends are here again but I don't look forward to weekends anymore because they'll only be about completing assignments and doing revision.

I think nobody's going to read my blog ever again because all I do is just complaining about the amount of work given.

Chinese New Year's in 2 weeks, which means V Day too! But I don't have any Valentines so yeah. Pathetic right? :(

LALALA.

Off to look for my other 17 recipes. :)

Nothing Better To Do.

2010-01-27T18:50:00.001+08:00

I'm exhausted from golfing after school today in Mandai.

It was hot, sunny but fun. :)

Anyways, I'm on The Straits Time and I'm kinda embarassed what is happening back at home. Putting pig heads in mosque, burning down churches, what is this man.

Oh well, I shall not talk more in case Internal Security Act detain me.

HAHAHA.

Bye.

AMath Test postponed and Mrs Kwok is back! :)

Adieu.

2010-01-24T22:09:00.002+08:00

Yay Yay. Everthing is over and I dont have to see my buddy's face anymore! :)

I'm glad and please, no way I'm going to miss her.

She really pissed me off alot during her 1 night,1 day stay. RAWR.

Anyways, went out to study w goodf in the morning and met up w Reiki, George, Joey, Atika and Anggun in the afternoon for study session again. Went to Reiki's place in the afternoon, reached home at 9.

It still feels like Saturday but there's school tomorrow and I have not completed my 13.3 and 13.4 worksheet, EMath and FnN.

Haiz. :(

URA.

2010-01-21T18:36:00.003+08:00

My blog is rotting, and I shall revive it now! :)

I have been quite busy these few days, CCA, AMath,Coursework and preparation for the stay of the China Exchange Students. Honestly, with all the work and assignments pilling up, and the upcoming CA Tests, I don't look forward to their arrival but I see this as a burden to me. I'm glad that their 2 days 2 nights stay has been changed to 1 night, 1 day. :) Let's just hope things wont turn out bad. :)

Had Learning Journey to URA today, it's also known as Singapore City Gallery. So, the 4E/5N are supposed to walk around the place and read about Singapore's development. But we decided to sit down and play truth or dare with Jaslyn's ITouch. 4E2 girls bonding, I likey.:)

Sun

2010-01-16T14:18:00.005+08:00

School has been about assignments,assignments and more assignments.

Test week next year, and I think erp sessions will start soon.

This will mean Monday, Wednesday and Friday for band and Tuesday,Thursday and Friday for extra classes.

CCA open house was alright I guess, hope people will join band. :)Dropped dead straight after I reached home.

Oh. And I'm kinda sad because I haven't grown any taller in 2009 but I have lost 1kg. YAY.:)

Met Sunbear for lunch today. Updated each other about our lives and yeah. He passed me something from MunLoong. :)

Not the books but the cap. :) Hand drawn and you wont find this anywhere else k! :)

Thanks MLoong for the cap and thanks Ian for bringing it over.:)

4e2 Love. :)

It has started.

2010-01-13T20:27:00.002+08:00

School today really made me lose temper.

Chinese Essay to be completed before school ends, new AMaths topic which I totally suck at(I want Mrs Kwok back!), 2 paragraphs of English within 20 mins or less.

I can't imagine having to go to school tomorrow and the same routine over again.

Is this what they call O levels year?

Anyways.

FnN question is out. The war has officially begun.

weekly journal.

2010-01-10T12:14:00.003+08:00

Hello! :)

First week of the year just slipped off in a flash.

Another step closer to THE DAYS.

Anyways, I've spent the week, meaningfully I would say? Especially the two days of workshop. It made us laugh on the first day, cried on the second day,wonder how third day would be like. That's the power of speech! LOL. They guided us to find our goal of life, the reason that we're here, and certain aspects of life that we've taken for granted. The 72.50 was worth it. HAHAHA.

Had Flag Day for C.I.P yesterday. It was kinda fun, but tiring and hot. Walked around Orchard for I don't know how many times, and got rejected most of the time. Didn't get a lot of notes, mostly coins from people. Apparently angmohs are more generous? Lesson learnt this time. :) Cabbed back to school @ around 4.15.

Oh well.

Last Day of workshop on Monday and Physics test next week. Wish me luck. :)

Alright, that's all. Off to giving a 100%! HAHAHA. :)

Don't forget to click on my ads k. :)

AKLT.

2010-01-07T22:12:00.002+08:00

Had the first day of the motivational workshop today. It wasn't really a motivational workshop btw. LOL. But the whole session was filled with jokes and laughters because 2 out of 3 trainers were hilarious. Nevermind about the details, but I've sitting from 0830 to 2100, with breaks in between of course, and I have back pain. Overall, it was alright!

O Level 2009 cohort results are coming out on Monday. The next batch will be us! OMG. =(

FnN Coursework A question coming out next week too. OMG.

From now to May/June, it'll only be coursework, coursework and coursework! :(

Go click on my ads k? Love.

2010-01-05T19:40:00.001+08:00

Preparations.

2010-01-03T19:51:00.002+08:00

I guess this will be the last time updating my blog 3 days in a row. School's starting tomorrow, and even though I miss spending time with the girls, the thought of having to stay back for erp everyday, having to chiong for fnn coursework, having to attend those stupid workshops that make u stay in school until 9pm just scares me.

I'm not ready for Sec 4 Life.

But the thing is: School is still starting tomorrow and the war officially begins.

Good luck to Jing,Venn and Nat for your first day in your new school.

To the rest: Cheers to be in upper secondary. :)

what can be worse?

2010-01-02T19:33:00.001+08:00

Flu, Sore throat,Conjunctivitis, Pimple Outbreak, work not done, school starting in 2 days.

What can be worse?

screw my life.

2010-01-01T21:25:00.002+08:00

First Day of 2010 and it's already screwed up.

I know there's nothing I can do to help,perhaps maybe I'll make things worse. But I just want to sincerely apologize.

Anyways, flew here with the family, and waited for Keith to join us. Brought them to Suntec, Esplanade and Sentosa. It started to rain, went to Vivo after then.

Reason that I'm alive.

2009-12-31T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hello! :) Got myself motivated and did some work last night, but still, I don't see much accomplishments. Oh well, blame myself for doing nothing beneficial for this whole of 2 months.

Anyways. Spent New Year's Eve with my dears and darlings. It's a pity that JFatt and JYang didn't come. The other 3 girls too! :(

Bonding session among the girls too. I miss talking to them and laughing like mad.I'm glad that Jessie made it. :)

Looking back, we've been through alot for the past 2 years(this year is not counted as I rarely spend time with you guys).The arguments, conflicts, dramas etc, it didn't break us but made us stronger. ily girls. :)

And to the rest of the world out there, cherish every moment with the people you love and care because you'll never know what's next.

Happy New Year and may all of us have a great year ahead.:)

The day before tomorrow.

2009-12-30T21:08:00.003+08:00

Yay Yay! 3 more hours to the last day of 2009.

I don't know why but I'm just happy! Okay, maybe not truly happy, a little tad stressed about O's next year.

But anyways.

2009 has been a very exciting year for me. New place, new school, new friends, new life. I have learnt a lot throughout the year, from gaining a new skill( I learnt to ride a bike and roller blade,oh and play a clarinet!(: ) to learning the "rules" of the society.

Met lots of great people, and of course, the not so great ones.I'm really grateful to those who stood by me when the whole world was against me, those who were the reason that I go to school every school day, those who brought laughter, joy and colours to my life.

To those of you who screwed up my life, fuck you.

Mistakes were made, but who doesn't? Like I said, I have learnt a lot throughout the year, and hopefully, I won't make the same mistakes again in 2010.

I want 2010 to be a blast!

(yeah, of course, who wouldn't, with O's coming in months. )

The 2nd part of my resolution list:

To not repeat the mistakes that I have made.

To grow up and think like a 15/16 student.

To not fall in love again.

Red wine cooler for the cousin sis,

orange vodka(which tastes like pure orange juice) for the little girl.

Road Trip.

2009-12-28T00:14:00.004+08:00

Went to Penang to visit Keith during the weekends! Overall, the trip was alright, it's always about food when I roam around with the family. (How am I supposed to lose 5kg!) Anyways, went to the beach, toy museum and the mall.

Finally got my memory card out of my laptop. :)

Shall entertain you with the photos!:)

Overdue ones:

And the recent ones:

4 more days till 2010.